In my eyes......

2008-11-28T06:22:00.000-08:00

Life is like a water

Sometimes water is hot

Sometimes water is cold

Water changeAnd life changes too.

Life is like a waterFlow, flow, flow

Water never stop to move

And that's what life is....

Life should go on!

(A poem from my student ~ Alex)

2008-11-27T06:37:00.001-08:00

The past few days were so hard for me. I really stressed myself too much which I know that I shouldn’t make things complicated. I know what to do but I’m not tough to give it a try. I know I disappoint a lot of people who really trusted me to take the risk. I apologize!

Someone told me that it’s not about asking other’s opinion because we all have different situation. Some may have the chance to turn back but others may not have the chance. We always have a lot of chances in life but it’s up to us what to choose. There are no wrong decisions. A decision becomes wrong if you didn’t end up to become a better person but choosing that decision is not wrong! God may give you a better chance but He also knows if you will take it or not. The decision you make is a God’s plan!

This would be the hardest decision I will make…..TO STAY WHERE I’M STANDING! I may not be sure on what will happen next but I must be happy because it is what I have chosen!
It always takes two to tango…. And it is ME and GOD to make things worth fighting for!

I LOVE YOU!

2008-11-18T05:49:00.000-08:00

Well, I’m not sure if I’m sad or happy,
confused or convinced,
blessed or not…..
But there is one thing for sure…..

I’M IN LOVE!

I’m in love with someone who gives me problems.
Someone who always ruin my Monday.
Someone who is very insensitive.
Someone who never worked hard for me.
Someone who never shows appreciation.
Someone who is so demanding…..

The person who I never thought would open a closed door for me….

The person I want to be with for the rest of my life.
The person I always want to be happy.
The person that makes my cold night warm.
The person who makes me laughs….

YES! I’m in love again with my husband…….

2008-11-13T23:42:00.000-08:00

PEOPLE I LOVE!

... FAMILY!

... FRIENDS ...

...mga friends ko na ka jam ko in my ups and downs...

...mga friends ko na bibasagan ko ng red horse...

...mga friends ko na super ang kulit...

...mga friends kong frustrated singers!hahahha...

...mga friends ko na ang tingin saking eh ONE OF THE BOYS...

...mga friends ko na kasabay kong mag-pray while singing relgiou songs...

...mga ffriends ko na ka-overnight ko every camp...

...mga friends ko na asabay ko mag-seminar...

...mga friends ko na kayosihan ko in my break time...

...mga friends ko na kasama ko mag-starbucks until 1am...

...mga friends ko na kasabay ko tumamabay sa baba ng building...

..mga friends ko kasama ko sa gimikan...

PEOPLE I HATE!

... GOLLUM! =/

... FRIENDS...

...mga friends na plastik...

...mga friends na nanglalaglag...

...mga friends na di marunong magparamdam...

...mga friends na doble kara...

...mga friends na insensitive...

...mga friends na di nagtitiwala...

...mga friends na pa-tweetums...

...mga friends na ... uhm... LIERS!

I know that nobody is perfect but well,

if you are a TRUE FRIEND... you will try to become one...

even you fail, a friend will see how you tried to become a TRUE FRIEND!

Well, some of you can relate .... If you want to add more... just write me a comment! hahaha!

I’m selfish

2008-11-10T22:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I asked myself why life is so selfish to me!

Everytime I look at people talking, laughing, calling on the phone, driving cars, riding in MRT and people walking I feel very sorry for myself for making decisions I never thought about!

I really don’t know why am’ I doing this and not the things they’re doing…. I never get satisfied on what I have though I really shouldn’t because you need to struggle more for you to survive. I never asked for a very satisfying life. I just want to have a simple life but I really don’t know where to start. I want something but I think it is impossible for me to do it.

But now, as I write this blog, as I listen to my heart, I can hear it saying…….

“You never started anything….. Don’t expect a change!”…….

Weow….. My heart is right! I never stepped my foot forward except for one thing…. It is when I file my resignation last November 4…… a very challenging decision but there is no more turning back… this is the only time that I will make a big decision in my life. A new change for my life! A lot of opportunities knocking on the door but I just opened my windows. I feel very sorry for myself…. I’m so afraid to face life! I may be strong outside but not inside and that is something I should change……

To start a change, deal with yourself first!

Well, dear, don’t wait until it’s too late….
Now, I know why life s selfish to me because I’m also selfish to give myself a chance!

Hahahaha… 1 blog but lots of realization……

2008-11-03T23:12:00.000-08:00

It all started Sunday night at the church, I silently pray to the Lord and asked Him what I should do in my life. The past week was so heartbreaking for all my colleagues. No one really knows what will happen next.

I just keep myself strong and hold on the plans I made for the future because I know I will not be alone in this journey. A strong conviction I have inside but still I had the guts to ask Him, what are these things all about? Why am’ I confused about things? Should I really move on or stay with the people I’ve been with for almost 2 years? Questions I cannot answer!

After taking a deep breathe in praying, I stand still in front of Him and continuously say what’s inside me …and then ... There are some words that come out in my mouth without even knowing where it is coming from….. “He is just testing how faithful I’ am and how strong do I trust Him to manage my life!”… A phrase that I can hear inside me…. Words that so strong to feel how blessed I’ am…. Answers that I’m looking for!

A very cold night but with His love it became so warm to feel how good He is to us. He just carried me once again and cleared my path to start a new life with Him!

LiFe

2008-10-29T00:26:00.000-07:00

Life is difficult to understand.
You will not be able to know where it will bring you.

If we can only stay in one place where all you have to do is to laugh and think about good memories I’m sure that all people are contented.
No one will ask for power, money, and all good fortunes in life….. We will be satisfied!!

Unfortunately, that’s not what life is…
Everyone should always take a step forward to continue life!
For me, it’s not true that we don’t have any choice; it’s a matter of choosing the right path for us to survive!

If you are sad today, it’s your choice not other’s choice!
Let’s stop blaming others for what we are now; they are just a part of our life but not the one who decides for us.

Dream for yourself and not for others.
It’s you who manage your life but we cannot plan for it.

We are the actors in our life and the director is GOD!

"WHY AM'I HERE AND DOING THIS BLOG NA WALANG KWENTA?"

2008-10-28T05:20:00.000-07:00

SPARTAN..awuawu!

(may others jn ha!)

A very close friend (MAria Angela Erica Cecilia....winner lang ang name .... hahaha ....)ask me to have my own blog but i said I can't because I have no time but now I'm here and trying to make my 1st blog. I just hope I will enjoy it para di naman nakakahiya!

I'm just thinking... what should I put here? pics? notes? messages? stories? music? video? ... oh okei... memories... wichikels..... sa dami ng memories baka di kayanin! =)
Anyway, let's start wd "WHY AM'I HERE AND DOING THIS BLOG NA WALANG KWENTA?"......
It all started during my free time in our office and I can't even open my fs or messenger because I'm in front of the camera which I hate.... I can't sleep nor put my feet on top of my table.... yung mga petiks mode.... but now...lakas loob na ginagawa ito... yung mga boss ko nga eh golf ang nilalaro sa internet.... hahaha... matching sigawsigaw pa yun noh!... carried away lang sila when playing that game! At minsan nagpupustahan pa sila..... ay bebeh chubs, minsan ba yun o madalas?... diba minsan ginagawa kang lucky charm.... hehehehe!!!!! (Beh walang laglagan 'to, just for fun!..mwahmwahmwah....) Well, there are so many stories inside our office.... kaya sa sobrang daming story eto cost cutting na, and the worst it... binebenta na nila mga gamit from the old office and we are in the new office.... sarap pakinggan new office...... pero kaya nagsisiksikan na eh dahil hindi na mabayaran ang rent sa old office...hehehe....OMG.... time will come vacation for life nako...hahaha...I just hope that before they declared BANKRUPTCY eh nakapag-resign nako para may makuha naman ako noh! Sabi nga ni Kaye "EXPECT THE WORST BUT HOPE FOR THE BEST!"... to be continued muna ang IWP story....
Speaking of story, I missed our MAALAALA MO KAYA spartans version! hehehe.... Famous characters are... Melay, Luningning, Ms. EL and ......ampupu...ano name ni aidz....oops sorry....! Anyway, sila ang main characters...multi-tasking lang para mabuo ang story.... well, miss you sparts! Nakakmiss yung nagsisiksikan sa taxi going to 2-be-us....ung mga out of nowhere na hirit ko tapos magtatawanan kayo.....yung walang tao ang floor dahil lahat nasa yosihan,sabay2 sa LKG...mga nakakasawang La Teraza foods, city bites, lola's at ngayun jollyjeep nalang...hay ang damidami...good and bad....well, about bad....uhm TOP SECRET nalang yun.... =/
Nabuo ang sparts sa loob ng IWP wherein nagkaroon ng mga tsismaks at yun...super stress pa nga me sa training namin sa word na MOUNTAIN...we miss you Carl! Tapos nabuo kami...but now wala na...konti nalang....diko nga alam kung may sparts pa talaga eh because the others are others na talaga...WE HATE SINUNGALINGS!...bato-bato sa langit ang tamaan siya ang sinungaling.
Hindi na buo ang sparts just like our office, evrything always falls apart. Well, ganyan talaga, kapag wala ng pioneer eh wala narin mangyayari...
hehehe.... =)
Well, straight na class ko and I can't concentrate with my class...nose bleed na kasi itong mga ito! i'll just try to add more kapag may naisip e uli!
Now I realize what blog is for... It's for expressing yourself freely!
MABUHAY ANG FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION! awuawu......