I’m selfish

Sometimes I asked myself why life is so selfish to me!

Everytime I look at people talking, laughing, calling on the phone, driving cars, riding in MRT and people walking I feel very sorry for myself for making decisions I never thought about!

I really don’t know why am’ I doing this and not the things they’re doing…. I never get satisfied on what I have though I really shouldn’t because you need to struggle more for you to survive. I never asked for a very satisfying life. I just want to have a simple life but I really don’t know where to start. I want something but I think it is impossible for me to do it.

But now, as I write this blog, as I listen to my heart, I can hear it saying…….

“You never started anything….. Don’t expect a change!”…….

Weow….. My heart is right! I never stepped my foot forward except for one thing…. It is when I file my resignation last November 4…… a very challenging decision but there is no more turning back… this is the only time that I will make a big decision in my life. A new change for my life! A lot of opportunities knocking on the door but I just opened my windows. I feel very sorry for myself…. I’m so afraid to face life! I may be strong outside but not inside and that is something I should change……

To start a change, deal with yourself first!

Well, dear, don’t wait until it’s too late….
Now, I know why life s selfish to me because I’m also selfish to give myself a chance!

Hahahaha… 1 blog but lots of realization……